livin in bangi part 2: havin it all 2myself

7th february 2005

i'm writing the second time today...
(new year is near for the chinese...dat means..no business for me....hehehe)

so its been a week...
n i've been weak...
n not forgetting sleek...
for this new..new... brick...

sometimes its scary...
most times weary..
as i sleep peace (rareLy)...
as i lay soft (hardLy)...

sometimes back in bangi..
i live myself uncanny..
as i give myself to mutiny...
as i dream of having immunity...

its hard to believe....
or even conceive..
as i'm thinkin this eve...
MyOwn home to ease...
my own place to please...

2.00 pm

what i've lurrrrrrve so far (livin on my own)

1) open the door of the kitchen around 6.30pm n i can smell fresh food bein steamed/fried/stirFry....
an automatic reaction will be visible in my stomach....
(if not..can hear somethingla..hehehe)

2) listening to music never sounded the same....suddenly i can clearly hear the lirics....n how dreadFul n pathethic it really is....till it can made me cry, cry n cry for no apparent reason whatsoever...( " , )...or laugh till i wanna pee so bad...heheheh

3) try havin no tv in the house....hey its not so bad....i've got all the time in my life to do...mmmm...laundry (again..i do handWash now...my hands are kinda rough...), reading books (i've become a worm already)....n be closer to my artistic (if ever does exist) side.....heheheh

4) havin a good cup of tea...wit my stars....n the wind...mmmm..pleasure....PurePleasure...especially when all snuggledUp in my fav sofa.....wit my blanket...mmmmmmm...(got all the oranges i need this festive season....hehehe)

5) walk around my kitchen for a drink in my undies....hehehe.... (naw ..JustKidding....heheeh)

6) to cradle this home like having a baby of my own...every corner just worries me....everyThing i do..i actually think n consider....n get this....i take responsibilities (shit that is impossible to believe....heheheh)

but i do hate this one particular feeling .....when i've got family here to entertain....so proudLy showing what i've done...
n when that time they have to leave...
suddenly it struckU....that sinkin feeling....that nudge in the stomach...
oh shit....just a few miniutes..i'll be sleeping alone .....
(like i said...still bein the goodGurl dat i am....heheheheh)

happy chinese new year to all celebrating n Y
amSeng to those who don't...go easy on the oranges aaah....
(n of course all other stimulants ait....heheheh)

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